{10 thinks I'm thinkin;)

 

 What I think:

1.  I really didn't like dropping my baby off at his first day of preschool...

{Though he was SO super excited to be a big boy and go to school}

I cried because he's my last and I don't want him to be

BECAUSE 

he's got a VERY special spirit about him that draws him to people

he see's things in people who need some love, a compliment, a smile, attention

and brings people to tears with his thoughtfulness and insightful comments.....

 I suppose a part of me doesn't want to have that every leave him or hurt or destroy that huge part of who he is if you know what I mean....

he is a peaceful, peacemaker child

he can look at you like he's so disappointed in you, you want to melt

he gives the best hugs says the warmest kindest things

because he seems so small

because he's been my constant little buddy for 4 years

because I can't believe the years went by so fast

because I'm not ready for my kids to go out in this disturbing world thats so twisted and maimed ....

because I want them to be innocent that much longer

because I'm scared to lose them....in any way

because I'm not ready for him to be the last....

because I felt older this time.....

Because I love my kids and just want to keep them little and innocent that much longer...

seriously look how cute he is in his new glasses

This was orientation day last week:)

And the big kids on their first day can't even tell you how much I love these faces how blessed I am to have them in my life::::

2. Started our school lunch boxes its fun to surprise them with different things....even D wanted one thats big:) thinkin its kind of fun right now:)

3. thinkin..... sometimes I feel kind of lonely or left behind left behind what? not even sure?? not sure what to do and where to start or what direction to work harder on....... things are changing............ the world around us is changing......and the greatest place I can be right now is right here in my home... 

but sometimes it can be a lonely place too maybe because D is so busy now, maybe cause the kids have stuff all over the place and finding deep inside myself 

what matters most is the biggest goal 

and how to get there and feeling important, loved and cared about in probably the most thankless job there is right 

MOTHERHOOD

finding joy in the journey everyday
whether you have to work, want to work, be home or whatever it is

 whatever it is it is our now and its what I've all dreamed of doing and I'm doing it....

SO it doesn't even make sense does it? 
DOING THE GREATEST WORK THERE IS RAISING THESE LITTLES? 

YET feeling unappreciated and underpaid ;) unimportant..... like what your doing doesn't matter 

yet inside I know it does and it will all come full circle someday......confusing myself ? but you get what I'm trying to say right??

and I guess truthfully I suppose some days I still feel like this:

 Maybe its just going into a new phase of our lives

maybe its just something that NEVER goes away..

Maybe my baby just went to preschool

and that would mean he's not a baby.....

4.thinking I'm really just missing my super early morning runs outside fresh air does that right:) so I started on the inside ....treadmill early morn ...but its my time to think, and 

LATELY a little to many me thinks:)

 i keep reading things about people, or people always make comments about me because I get ready for the day..... early anyway that those who get all ready do their hair makeup and 

get dressed are fake or aren't real moms who get dirty??spit up on etc

because they are done up or get ready for the day whatever....

i don't really care what you do....each to your own..... but for ME 

I am ME.

I get up at 5:30 am {gasp i know but remember this is me not you it works for me}

so I can get the things done that make me feel better about ME thats sweating my head off for an hour 

showering 

getting ready 

reading my scriptures 

{or rather listening to them on my phone I love it! Multitasking right:) 

 and saying my prayers ready to face the day ahead

BEfORE my kids get up and need all my attention 

for me I am calmer that way 

ready to face whatever

I've already had ME time hours to think about what needs done, where and what I have to do that day who needs an extra bout of love attention or help............ before they get up

and YES i still/{did} feed, carry, & change diapers 

{i know how to change my clothes;) not a big deal

and make breakfast lunch dinner 

run a hundred errands 

mop the floor vacuum 

do the laundry over and over and over again EVERY single day

and all the same things you do in 

your yoga pants 

GUESS what its fine you do it that way.....
I prefer for me my way

not because i feel like I'm better than you or perfect or whatever you want to slant it with but

BECAUSE then I devote my day to my kids totally ready to face the world, my house, my family WHATEVER i need to do and feel a little like I accomplished something in my day already

Because thats how i do it and thats what makes me happy....
we each have our own happy what matters most to you 

so don't apologize to me when you see me just because I get dressed  and ready everyday.....I'm not judging you ..because we are all different ......

It's personal preference....... I sacrifice sleep and its okay.

Because thats me.  And you are you.

{this pic was from the other night late! just so you don't think I wear makeup in my basement in the early morn judge away;)

so movin on...

5. thinkin my big football boy ....got off lucky we had a scare this weekend first game of this season he got stepped on by a big kid on the opposing team and his thumb and palm got swollen up really big.  So we took him in, got an xray done ..and the Dr said it was just a bruised bone and could keep playing ....but yesterday the same DR called and said the radiologist sent back a report saying it was broken and should be cast....so our Dr wanted to check it out so we went down and he immediately started pushing on it and pressing before saying anything to K but K didn't shout out or wince so he concluded it was just as he said and it was fine:) So we all were happy:) The Dr said score one for the family DR:)  So thankful that didn't spoil his season that would have been sad:(

ps he'd be really mad if he knew I put this on here;0

6. thinkin september is THE most expensive month of the year! feel kind of like I can't keep up with the cheques going out! or my head above ground yet....

7. thinkin i really love surprise packages in the mail i have some of the sweetest friends i've never met :) yet out there ...thank you thank you for making my day!! gives me the pay it forward feeling there is good still in this world and everyday we can find something...

8. thinkin this was a keeper recipe the kids loved it so did D:)

Greek Yogurt Parmesan Chicken

• 3-4 chicken breasts
• 1 cup of plain Greek yogurt
•  1/2 cup Parmesan cheese
• 1 tsp garlic powder
• 1 1/2 tsp salt
• 1/2 tsp pepper
• cooking spray 
• All you have to do is mix the Greek yogurt, cheese and seasonings together in a small bowl to create a paste. Coat a cooking dish with cooking spray. I just put my chicken in and spread the mixture over all of it...

Bake uncovered at 375 for 40 minutes and then turn the oven up to 425 and continue baking for another 5 minutes to make it nice and golden brown. You can just do 375 degrees for the 45 minutes but it will not be a golden color.

 

9. Ready for fall weather.

10.  .....If life and its rushed pace and many stresses have made it difficult for you to feel like rejoicing, then perhaps now is a good time to refocus on what matters most. 

~Dieter F. Uchtdorf

I'm thinkin I love that quote

Anybody still reading out there? This blog feels like a lonely place sometimes too;) thoughts .......questions ?

Are you doing what matters most to you?

Have a great week make it count:)