What! November already!

Thoughts

I can actually hardly believe its time to get ready and thinking about Christmas again the years are flying by. That I know though every time I look at my kids and three are almost taller than me now its hard to not miss the days when they were little as much as I love watching them grow up. But then I'm overcome with the what if questions over and over.... what if I'm not doing enough to build them up for the real world... what if they grow up and never look back... what if they fall away ...make big mistakes ... despite what they've been taught we all make mistakes that's why were here..I know I just don't want them to hurt this world is cruel. What if everything I do doesn't matter in the end?? What if they can't see the happiness right before them in being obedient and choosing the right paths? What if they choose something other then I envision for them, which of course they will..  Then I remember also that each on is here own there own journey too. Their own paths and choices will lead them where they choose and sometimes like a lot of you it may not be what we would choose for them and though it makes our hearts ache we would and will still love them with all our hearts....
Nothing has happened, I just start thinking about how my kids are actually going to grow up and be adults themselves and I dream about all the things they could be and do because each is so so capable of amazing things. I just want the very best for them.

I look around at people who's children have all grown up are on missions or married with kids or away at university or college and I can't believe that I'm that old to start thinking in that way. My handsome little baby from long ago will be 16!! next month he was my greatest blessing my long prayed for miracle and the years are flying. They don't stay young long enough:(  I can't help thinking all these what if's because for some reason when teenagers get older they start having a mind of their own, but it makes me super thankful too that I have a kind and thoughtful, helpful son who loves me and is a great kid! Just hoping he stays that way that we make it through the bumps in the road and blips along lives paths together. Because nothing means more to me really and truly than having children who are happy and kind and considerate and respectful to all. Who are prepared for the real world who are strong and grounded and faithful and trustworthy and I'm trying really hard to raise the kind of kids who turn out to be productive, honest, happy hard working strong testimonies of faith and  prepared adults for the real world. But what if ? Stop the what if 's and live life each day right and be strong I know I'm trying I really am. Its hard being a parent nobody tells you how hard the part where we raise them and they leave the nest and go on their way okay not not yet here ....but soon. I can't help it, so despite this post I try to be better everyday to be a good example to be kinder, calmer and more patient and loving. I'm trying but aren't we all, everyday. 

 Thoughts?

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Life: This and That

We are fully two months into school so far things are great keeping busy running kids here and there and subbing  more this year. I'm also on our elementary and high school parent councils and that's been fun to continue to be involved. I also new to me canvased for school trustee runners in our election her this past month and enjoyed learning new things and keeping informed and helping others understand the importance of whats at stake and to see the blessings of that.  So I'm keeping busy on the  home front and out there too:) D has been beyond busy in all he has to do, so I've been single parenting it for a long time you get kinda used to it. Part of the journey. But things are good..

M the big gr.6er is loving his class and teacher and doing awesome! He did football and just finished  he has loved it and has learned a ton and worked hard to understand the game and step up so proud of him! This boy since he was little has always been so independent that for sure hasn't changed a bit, he's always on the go still! I have gotta find him something to do over winter! He loves scouts too though and all the fun learning things they do each week. He's a great kid, he's funny loving and happy ...helpful and loves kids and keeping them happy. He just makes me laugh a lot!

K2 has been busy with flag football and basketball camp as well as piano and cubs he's been a busy boy, but has enjoyed all of them flag is done and bball is done today. So we have got to find some other activities to keep him moving and busy.  He is such a creative, smart boy he just needs something to do that keeps him going. I love his desire to learn and understand things deeper than most of us feel.  He's always asking questions and loves to learn new and exciting things along the way. He is full of passion. He also joined choir too at school and he loves it. 

He's quite the well rounded boy that's for sure just love this sweet boy!

L has been loving grade 8 she has some great friends is becoming more organized and on top  of things at school too and, she seems to be enjoying this year much more than last already! And that makes me happy! She tried out for volleyball again, but sadly didn't make she's good... but politics rule in little towns;) But she's tough and moved on to help out with coaching tennis the past two months and has learned a lot and loved it too! Its been fun to see her  learning growing and realizing that mom isn't all wrong;) We have our days, but she's a great girl strong feisty and sassy some days.... but then again so am I;) love our miss L.

K has spent the last two months working on goals and figuring out high school and learning to study. He's been causal working for people and practicing for basketball season, he chose not to do football this year and I think he was okay with that, but he lacked a few things to keep him super busy besides studying but we are working on that!  I for reals can't believe he will be 16 and can drive! What! no not ready for that at all! Though trips to drop kids off and pickup or run to the grocery store will come in very handy, its just that my mama heart can't handle the what if's of that too! Ahh how do we make it;) But he is growing like a weed still! 6'3 and still going and size 14!! shoes. I can't even keep up to him! Love these kids to the moon and back! What I wouldn't do for them!

So we've had an eventful busy two months with sports school and the extras along the way! We decided at the end of September that we were going to surprise the kids and go down to conference and it was so worth the fast trip, we all loved it and the time together. We loved being with family and seeing our favorite missionaries who had served her and conference was amazing to be there all together was something else! Do it if you never have its beautiful well worth it!  We all loved it! 

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RANDOM

Favorite new thing

 This letter board is so fun! Got mine here

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"Live beyond the "what if." Find joy in what is."

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Have a great day! Make it count:)