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I am:  me. I am 35. I am a mother. I am a sister. I am a daughter. I am a wreck sometimes. I am trying. I am imperfect. I am impatient. I am frustrated sometimes. I am tired.  I am learning. I am growing. I am in love with my husband. I am HAPPY. I am striving, growing, learning every step of the way in this life....

I am so thankful for my family....

I am thankful: for everything... right now especially that our primary presentation is over and it went so good:)

I have: parent preschool snack tomorrow morning and don't have a clue what to make,  I  wanted to make something amazingly halloweeny but that's not going to happen...

I know:  that everything happens for a reason whether we understand at the minute or not....and whatever it is there is always a lesson to be learned.

 

I think: time goes by so fast that sometimes we forget to enjoy what we are doing now. that we don't sit and talk and play enough and I think there a far to many distractions along the way that take away from the family and our lives.

I don't think: sometimes.

I want:  to move to the country live in a big house with a big wrap around porch gabled windows, a farm sink a big kitchen and room to run and play for hours.....and every little detail I've pinned on pintrest ha ha! But really thats all a dream all I really want is my kids to grow up happy, strong, intact with a testimony and with the least amount of pain possible! and To know how much they are loved.

I like:  {love} spending mornings with just K2 he is my little bud. I {like} summer nights, camping boat days, walks runs, music, family, road trips, getaways, new shows like biggest loser, terra nova, x factor, revenge

I dislike:  being late, kids dawdling in the morning or watching tv or stealing wii remotes when they should be getting ready for school,making everybody have to hurry and rushing out the door so they don't miss the bus when the things I want to get done with them before they go don't get done....sets the tone for the day...

I hate:  being so impatient about certain things sometimes, I hate that its hard to be in charge, sometimes its just hard to please everyone and get it right the first time live and learn right.

I dream: about what a little me and D would look like ....{yeah your right probably a darn good thing we adopted ha ha:) love my cute big girl.....can't believe how big she is getting....I have so many dreams for her and I hope they all come true....Love you L.

I fear:  accidents,  death of one of my family, and something happening to my kids beyond my control...... this  is a sick sick world we live in.

I am annoyed:  That sometimes those negative voices we all let in sometimes or comparative voices that say "I'm uglier than I thought" or chubbier than I thought or I can't do that or I don't make things like that my house isn't good enough whatever it may be...I hate when those thoughts creep in....somebody wants us thinking that way and it ANNOYS me!!

I crave: a getaway. i wish. Europe calls my name {someday}

I usually:  spend to much time on here and have a love /hate relationship with it to be honest. I try hard not to get on here till everything gets done then I spend to much time before bed on it! Seriously I'd love to be a pioneer and live off the land and make my own things to survive sound fun? Yeah we have it easy or harder what ever way you look at it.

I search:   for answers on my knees daily.... for my life.... our life...our kids...our families..... primary....I wish it was easier to find the answers but at least I know where to look to get started..

I wonder: what people think sometimes? seriously?  or don't?

I know:  WHEN WE DECIDE TO MAKE RIGHT CHOICES AND DO WHAT IS RIGHT WE ARE BLESSED FOR IT.{Speaking of I AM SUPER EXCITED FOR SOMEONE CLOSE TO US WHO IS TAKING A BIG STEP AND A BETTER PATH IN HIS LIFE TOWARDS WHERE WE ALL WANT TO BE IN THE END. Because in the end we only have our choices to look back on to where we are today. One person us has all the power in the world to take one path or the other.  
US.

I just can't help:  always cleaning up my house after everybody and even before people leave my house sometimes its just a habit....

I regret:  not traveling more before I got married and wish I worried less about paying things off  and working so much ......thats a dumb regret but I don't have to many ....

I love: my kids and D obviously more than anything and more than I ever thought possible its amazing isn't it how much your heart can love someone else...that in itself is a gift:) I'm so glad I have.

love little pocket boys and I'm to cool for this pose boy:) and of course the little girly too:)

I can't live without: my four sweet kids and wonder if there is another one out there? OTHER than that well lets hope I never have to find out what I can't live without although we can live without a whole lot more then we think we can.

I try to: be a good mom but I have a hard time following through on chore chart things like that they lose there initial excitement, and a hard time seeing farther then right now rather than that they are just kids....working on it....

I enjoy: watching my kids laugh and play nice together, I enjoy date nights, and hot baths and alone time...new clothes....the temple....blogging, reading, being at home when my kids get home from school with a snack ready.... hearing about there day ups downs and  the good and bad....

this is probably my favorite picture ever of our  four children D was making them laugh so these are genuine smiles:) love it! Thanks Pam

I miss: prison break late date nights with D that was so so fun when we first got netflicks we were addicted and flew through them.....  I still watch it sometimes just to get my wentworth fill ha ha .... i miss when you watch a series and it ends is that weird ?? I watched drop dead diva on net flicks in the mornings when I got ready cute series with a good lesson on perception and judging..... I need something else really good and clean...because

I don't care: much for trashy tv and can't understand why people watch half the trash out there and think nothing of it...each to there own though:)

I always:clean sink faucets and around them when I wash my hands ocd not sure I hate water spots:)

I never want to: downhill ski .....a black diamond ever again because i don't HAVE To....if I don't want to....

I rely on:  my instincts, my gut feeling a lot if it doesn't feel right it probably isn't! and I rely on D he is a rock.. my rock...I look up to him, love him and can't imagine life without him in it.

I believe:  we get back what we give ....... if we spend our lives being offended at every little thing we  won't find much joy...if we hate judge and count people out before they even have a chance that says something about our selves, I also believe this little boy is growing up school is great for him and he loves it:) and WE love him!

he tried the fake smile out for all his individuals so we are going for a reshot to see if we can get some real ones:)

I dance:  when K2 says "dance" he loves  music and dancing no matter where we are.... he is such a joy....my cuddliest warmest snuggler who loves him momma and I kind of like it a lot I don't want my baby to grow up but everyday he does a little more makes me sad!  Can't get enough of him ♥♥♥him.

I argue: with K sometimes ha ha and he is usually right because he remembers everything and I AM apparently getting old! Can't tell you how much I love this handsome kid, depend on him, appreciate him all of it LOVE you K!!

I want to: play more games with my kids, listen better, travel, lose some weight seriously this older age thing isn't funny things slow down and numbers creep up sad:( , I want to be better at serving, I want to be better for my kids more patient understanding and more on there level. I want a lot of things but I want what matters most deep down more than anything for all my kids D and my family, and every person connected with my family and thats covering a lot of people. I want what is best for all of us to be happy to understand that obedience is happiness and there is no other way, it hurts to see some make choices you so desperately wish they didn't, but we don't always get what we want.
We can still wish hope and pray though.

I wish:everybody could get along and see that we all are struggling one way or another...nobody gets a free pass card even if they are trying hard to pass it off...its there.

I listen:to music all the time cause I love it.

I don't understand: children of suicide it's so sad don't you just wish you could see what they were thinking see how they perceived things and help them.....

I forgot: That not everything in life is fair sometimes there are a lot of rude awakenings  and disappointments along the way. Try teaching the kids that. I guess its all a trial and error live and learn kind of teaching isn't it.

I am happy: when my house is content, my children are happy, my husband is happy, we have food to eat, money in the bank, the gospel and my testimony... life is good……and we are so blessed....

the imperfect bunch of us

 How's that for mixing it up? Give it a try makes ya think:)
Make it a good week...