{10 for Today}

Since I'm so far behind on so much this is what it is......

1. Read this amazing post on Motherhood my friend wrote...... 
amen to all of it

2. Ever feel really lonely? Even when your surrounded by people?

3. Had a nice long Sunday drive together to the ranch.....one of the most beautiful places around...peaceful calm and wide open space....

 I think my favorite part of the drive was listening to my kids talk about the world they would create and who was aloud to come and what kind of things they were going to do...it was quite entertaining........ I  ♥ when they get along so well....and for fun we shot some instagram randomness......{k2 was in his pj's already before we left he was so tired }
Pretty Special kids eh in this top pic lol:)

4. If I could spend money without thinking I would buy a blendtec or vitamix blender so I could make whole food smoothies they sound so so good....

or I'd buy a teal or mustard  JO TOTES bag since I never win the giveaways...but I'm really to cheap and I like a good bargain or sale...

5. We went shopping with our littles on holiday Monday afternoon for bushes and such and bought a lilac bush..... I love lilacs............ the last week my kids have brought me a lilic flower everyday after school....just because they know I love them.....

6. DO you want to hear a crazy fact ....in the last 15 years since I got married there have been 41 babies born into our two families. Holy.

7. I really want to travel to Europe and stay at places for like a month and live and feel the culture....my daydreams are full of interesting things like that....just a few of them..I LOVE history.....I loved going to Germany....not its all the other places I want to go that I can't stop thinking about......I don't want to grow old picking dandelions out of my front yard waiting to die or something..... 

 I want to go...go...go....someday....

images via pinterest

8. I got a package from the Ukraine yesterday it was super cool....so were the earrings that came with it..... so cute...

thank you etsy....and girl in the Ukraine....

interesting enough a package from there gets here way faster than something sent from the USA :)  go figure eh..

9. Love this print. faith is so hard to have sometimes...but its true when you do have it and work hard for results..... it is a whole lot brighter...

from here

10. Some thoughts....... Rhonda got me thinking with her post.... I've written this before but some days its a nice reminder to know that we are all working towards something and some days it takes a lot to get through one day......
Me Thinks

Its hard as women to feel like we matter in a sea of so many distractions and so many things out there that try to make us feel bad about ourselves, about how we look, or how we see things, or in comparing to this and that and we all have our individual trials to deal with. 

Sometimes the things like these get in the way of who we are and want we want to be we let the things that don't matter get in the way and cloud our judgment and our actions {sometimes.} Sometimes we let them get in the way of our full potentional to reach out. To give a smile. To give a hug. To really stretch and get to know someone. 

Sometimes just being good moms and feeling like good moms is a struggle. 

 I go to bed at night and think  

did I do ANY good today??  

What could I have done better??

Did I make my children feel important? did I make a difference in there lives today for the good? did I nag too much?? lose my patience to many times?? Did I make them feel loved and know that they are loved?? 

did I take time with each one of them.

Its hard, sometimes when I kneel to pray at night I think tomorrows a new day I'll do this and this different then I pray for help I pray for peace and I pray that my children will grow up strong healthy and know how much they are so so loved.

That they will KNOW and live the gospel and make right choices. I find that I'm hard on myself and that I need to be doing this and should do that. I think as women and mothers we are too hard on ourselves we all need some me time, we all need a friendly smile or someone to sit by, or a friend who understands we all NEED that.

As women we tend to be hard on ourselves we lessen what we do and think its not important what we do sometimes. 

I love this next quote cause how often are our prayers for the tasks instead of using our abilities to fully accomplish our tasks no matter what they are.

President Thomas S. Monson says -
" ... do not pray for tasks equal to your abilities, but pray for abilities equal to your tasks. Then the performance of your tasks will be no miracle, but you will be the miracle."
Thats all. I'm done..