{I AM...}

 

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I am:  me.

 

 I am tired. I am happy. I am frustrated. I am sad sometimes. I am impatient sometimes. I am crazy sometimes too :) I am a  ......wife mother sister  aunt friend daughter. I am a soccer mom. I  am a doer.....but

I am overwhelmed sometimes with getting everything done.

Most of all I am so thankful for my family....the fact that I have one the fact that they make me laugh, cry and feel such joy and then such madness I can hardly stand it. But I am thankful for every little "mom" moment , every smile, every hug and all the tears I get to soothe and  wipe away.

I am thankful: I am thankful for my faith. for prayers..... for my home..... my hard working husband, my life.

 I have so much to be thankful for.

I have:so many doubts sometimes and second guess myself to much. I have a full calender that is just insane for the next month.

I know: that my children won't be young forever and I need to enjoy the moment more. I know K is growing up way to fast and learning so many life lessons this year as well as L.M.K2 I know that my Heavenly Father loves. I know that I love my family more than anything.

 

I think:people don't realize how good they got it sometimes. I think I think to much. I think I worry to much sometimes.. I think I'm frustrated with getting things organized for primary sometimes I just don't understand why some people say yes and do nothing it feels like an epidemic lately. I think there is a big shift in attitude about commitment levels these days.

I don't think:we realize how much affect we have on people especially the things we say and do.

I want:  understanding. I want to be caught up on cleaning, laundry and knowing what to make for dinner every night. I want to understand what people are thinking sometimes. I want to not care what some people think. I want to build my dream house.

 

I like: days spent on the lake and I can't wait. I like warm summer night the smell of fresh cut hay. I like when my kids play all day long and come in tired hot and dirty. I like time to myself sometimes hard to come by some days somebody always needs something don't they:) part of a mom life...

I dislike: that the town doesn't have swim lessons the first two weeks after school sad:( I dislike when kids are disrespectful and act like they were born in a barn sometimes. I dislike televised stake conferences. I dislike being late. I dislike disorganization.I dislike cleaning bathrooms and fridges both of which need done. 

I hate:  being so impatient about certain things sometimes, I hate that its hard to be in charge, sometimes its just hard to please everyone and get it right the first time... live and learn I guess right.

I dream: of a big farm house in the country that I've already built in my head:) I dream  of having a baby someday {just not when I'm 45-50 } I dream of a beautiful new deck and being done landscaping .

I fear:  accidents,  death of one of my family, and something happening to my kids beyond my control......I fear my kids being kidnapped or worse. I fear for all of us in a world we live in its only going to get worse.

I am annoyed:  That sometimes those negative voices we all let in sometimes or comparative voices that say "I'm uglier than I thought" or chubbier than I thought or I can't do that or I don't make things like that my house isn't good enough whatever it may be..I hate when those thoughts creep in....somebody wants us thinking that way and it ANNOYS me!!

I crave: getting away. I crave peace. in a lot of things.

I usually: have a hard time thinking about things to blog about lately I hit a wall and time is scarce these days and nobody reads blogs anymore do they??

I search:   for answers on my knees daily.... for my life..for our future..... our life...our kids...our families..... primary....I wish it was easier to find the answers but at least I know where to look to get started..

I wonder: what people think sometimes? seriously?  or don't? 

i wonder about people 's perception of me is sometimes....I think we all do at some points in life.

I know:  this is the way it was meant to be. I know that sometimes thinking of all the tears that went into this "making"  this family to get to this point is overwhelming to think about. But I do know miracles exist because I have five of them.

I just can't help: fixing my kids hair clothes and dirty faces. I can't help checking the dishwasher every night before bed.

I regret: not much. everything happens for a reason.

Life is like a camera: focus on what’s important, capture the good times, & develop from the negatives.
~Unknown~

I can't live without: the gospel. my family. scriptures. LOVE. water.

I try to:be the best I can be..... work hard pray hard and to feel like I accomplished something by the time I go to bed.

I enjoy: watching my kids laugh and play nice together, I enjoy date nights, and hot baths and alone time...new clothes....the temple....blogging, reading, being at home when my kids get home from school with a snack ready.... hearing about there day ups downs and  the good and bad....

I miss:spontaneous trips. time. I miss the baby stage. i miss normality. i miss my grandparents. i miss my sisters and mom they just all got away together and I really missed being with them and laughing having fun. i miss somethings about the simplicity of life long ago. i miss pre cell phone days for everyone. i miss those that have gone from here. 

i miss you who don't comment anymore:) sorry I'm so boring:)

I don't care: what anyone tells me I have the right to teach my children right from wrong and I will. I don't care if I look like the mean mom sometimes we NEED MORE MEAN MOMS these days!

I always: have the same hair and nails and boring:) I really want to grow my hair out not sure if that is going to happen though!

I always have to hurry hurry my kids out the door in the morning as I'm yelling "I love you have a good day as they run down the street to the bus...shut the door and think well that went good....crazy mornings!

I rely on:  my instincts, my gut feeling a lot if it doesn't feel right it probably isn't! and I rely on D he is a rock.. my rock...I look up to him, love him and can't imagine life without him in it.

I believe:  we get back what we give ....... if we spend our lives being offended at every little thing we  won't find much joy...if we hate judge and count people out before they even have a chance that says something about our selves,

I dance:when we play loud music in the kitchen and the kids dance around {between getting the dishes done} we don't dance enough

I argue:with people when it comes to our rights and freedom of speech {ha what freedom of speech can't say anything these days!} without being in trouble .....

I want to: play more games with my kids, listen better, travel,  I want to be better at serving, I want to be better for my kids more patient understanding and more on there level. I want a lot of things but I want what matters most deep down more than anything for all my kids D and my family, and every person connected with my family and thats covering a lot of people. I want what is best for all of us to be happy to understand that obedience is happiness and there is no other way, it hurts to see some make choices you so desperately wish they didn't, but we don't always get what we want.
We can still wish hope and pray though.

I wish:everybody could get along and see that we all are struggling one way or another...nobody gets a free pass card even if they are trying hard to pass it off...its there.

I listen:to music all the time cause I love it.

music stirs something in us all calms us, inspires us, relaxes us, pumps us up and brings the spirit into our homes we love music!

I don't understand: exactly. i don't.

I forgot: That not everything in life is fair sometimes there are a lot of rude awakenings  and disappointments along the way. Try teaching the kids that. I guess its all a trial and error live and learn kind of teaching isn't it.

 

I am happy: when my house is content, my children are happy, my husband is happy, we have food to eat, money in the bank, the gospel and my testimony... life is good…just look around we  are so, so blessed....

once again ♥ the imperfect bunch of us....

10 for Tuesday.

1. I went to a community garage sale sat morn with a couple friends and scored some cool stuff :)

2. my kids were wired this weekend.

3. My talk to the YW in the stake went good I think glad to have it done

4. I cried all the way through it. personal topic:)

5.This month found out 7 of my sil's are pregnant. wow.

6. M has 4 days of school left crazy!! then what? oh me crazy;)

7. my SLC trip with D in July is kid covered by my awesome sil! such a relief. thanks Kate.

8. Excited to have new people called for primary and get things rolling a huge weight of my shoulders!

9. i can't keep up these days..... such long days and feel like I can't do anything right some days!

10. My friend is having a thrive foods home party at my house next Wednesday night ..... come find out what it is .......great samples ....company.... and a way to boost your food storage....fun  times:)

Have a great week:) Make it count:)