{Jumped right out...}

 Ever read something that jumps out at you?

or you felt the same or gone through what your reading about or watching and thought that's exactly how it is??

today I got the newest ENSIGN issue and was flipping though it and came to an article entitled

"Faith and Infertility" 

so naturally I read it, of course it brought tears and was kind of personal I even "know" a couple in the article we've talked through email/face booked before on adoption issues. 

I realized {long ago} and more every year that sometimes we think nobody knows how we feel or nobody really gets it ...unless your there or feel a touch of what others go through in your own trials whatever they are...

 a few things jumped out at me were these....

{I'd link to the article but its not up yet...}

Some of the article felt like I could have written it from first five year feelings to now..I know there are a lot out there going through it whether its the first year or 15th, more than we know  not everybody feels the need to share the pain and sometimes that takes time to be able to.   

But my biggest thing is that we aren't ever alone there are those that feel the same no matter what it is. 

For us its infertility the 10% of population with the cause unknown kind.
{for all those who have wondered over the years there's your answer .....would be easier if the unknown had a name but it is what it is. nothing wrong with either of us....in that sense anyway lol}

Anyway some of this article that jumped out at me were

"In our church where the family is celebrated as the fundamental unit of society, not having children can be especially difficult challenge. 

{totally felt like that in the first five years}

"God does not leave His children alone in their trials. "Never give up,"...."There is always Hope. Heavenly Father always has something in store for us. We have found that over and over. {I couldn't agree more}

"I felt lost for a long time. I felt I had no purpose. That's the ultimate goal isn't it, to get married and have a family?.... I felt broken, like I wasn't a real woman...."
{many times still do a lot of the time}

"I remember wondering how something that was so important in life could be denied me, My feelings of hurt ......

"Many people facing infertility look for a reason behind the struggle and sometimes blame themselves. Such thoughts and feelings

 can sting even more when others make well intended but hurtful comments, often laced with misguided beliefs."

Hearing new mothers say things like " God trusted me enough to bless me with this baby." I can understand why they say that. Its a fair statement. But in my situation without a child I couldn't help but think, "God doesn't trust me." {I remember feeling like that so many times, every time a baby blessing happened and so many times...} "I felt so left out. Why were all these other women getting to experience pregnancy? I had tried to live my life worthily and do things I knew were correct. So why wasn't it happening for me?"

Love this next part...

" When someone has an ailment or an illness and they are healed as a result of a blessing, there faith is being strengthened. But for those of us who aren't healed but continue in faith, their faith is being perfected. the first is a faith-promoting experience. the second is faith-perfecting. 

{never thought of it like that}

"I couldn't change the infertility, but I could progress in other areas of my life......I finally realized that infertility wasn't a punishment. I was my refiner's fire."-angie belnap

Love this because I came to this same conclusion:

" It helped me realize amid a lot of unknowns that I was really blessed to have a husband who is so good to me, who loves me, and who was willing to work through this together,......It didn't mean that we got rid of the ups and downs. It didn't mean that there weren't times that were scary. But we've learned so much and grown so much closer because of what we've been through."

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jumped right out.... 

love it when that happens. I hope this helps somebody else too....

just had to pass it along....read it when it comes...

Have a great day! 

if I could get this song on my playlist I would my new favorite!! 

enjoy kind of goes with this post.......