{What I'm thinking....}

in the meantime I'm venting....

1. Not going to lie most people I talk to lately or read in blogs are Tired, in a funk, worn out, I'm right there what about YOU?

Tired of winter coats, tired of boots... tired of bundling up four kids every time we step out of the house, tired of cold,

tired of comfort food soups and breads and desserts {because really theres nothing else to do} 

tired of being tired as soon as I get up, 

tired of warming up my burb,

tired of SNOW, frigid temps and

I stole this from my sil's blog thanks kate for sharing thought I'd pass it along...amen

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ready for spring and summer.......

ready for flip flops, no coats, the sun to shine, green leaves, green grass, a sunburn, freckles, sun kissed kids, blondies, boat rides, water skiing, lake time & trips away, 

juicy watermelon,

2.Tired of 178 months, 14 years and 7358400 minutes of wasted thinking wondering if this is the month only to face another monthly disappointment, 

I HAVE FAITH but I've got plenty of frustration 

to go with it. 

3. To be honest I've had a hard month emotional wise /baby wise lots of babies born this past month and don't get me wrong for a second I AM so happy for each and every one! all so dang cute too!

Its just really hard to wonder if it will ever happen to you too when you've spend your whole married life wondering when or if and watching 28 babies be born within your own family in that time you'd think you'd get used to it by now eh! {yes it does get easier to accept but the pain or ache deep inside never goes away....it just feels different sometimes I feel like a broken,  useless piece of the puzzle that I'm not the same or as good as everyone else in my families, that I'm not fulfilling what I came here to do.....  but then I think I wouldn't have my sweet four children if things had been easy and simple and worked out the minute we got married. I think how in those first five years together D and I became a closer, tighter couple then I think we ever would have been, we are better parents because of it....its kind of a two edged sword if you know what I 'm trying to say.

I know many miracles do happen. I have four of them but the constant ache of actually making one never goes away and if we were done why would I want another baby so bad? because a} I'm still holding out for a miracle b} because we aren't done or c} its just something I'll carry with me forever that never will go away? if your done don't you feel done?  

to deep sorry and to much time to think about :) but what else we got to do when its snowing and cold for 5 months ha ha!

4. I'm Frustrated with a concern for a child of mine and if and what I can do to help its hard to know if its a normal age thing or if its something genetic.? Say if it was a biological thing I would just say well I was like that when I was young I grew out of it or what if its something altogether different?? 
Know what I mean....
not knowing alot my children's genetic makeup is kind of frustrating {at times} in that sense. Its nothing major just something I wonder about because if we have a problem now we want to help fix it not have the problem with a 16 year we can't control.

5. A little tired of grouchy, whiny, bickering kids that feel just like I do {obviously} since thats kind of what I'm doing right now ha ha 

venting..... actually is that different than whining??

we all need out {cabin fever} to many movies? we

need fresh clean air...... room to run, dirt to play in, a deck to get built, a sprinkler to run through, a good long walk and a park to play in

not air that freezes your nose hairs together and stops your lungs as soon as you take a breath!!! 

All right I'm done.. 

here are the good things...

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This boy is.....

today how did that happen...

- he loves to yell MOM over and over again

-he smiles all the time

-he loves baths, hour long breakfasts

and looking at books, his blankie, soother and loves nursery

still loves to sleep and goes down every night with prayer 

he reminds us often of prayer where ever we may be

-he is so dang cute and those eyes get me everytime

  - he says up, out, down, bye, hi, shoe, pop {for popcorn} ,he says thank you and please, good

loves to help me bake, loves to look in the oven when things are cooking

he LOVES his brothers and sister he waves goodbye when they go to school and can't wait for after school 

-he says "whe da" {for where's dad} so cute

-loves bread buns and anything like it loves 

ice water, to be held

he loves the i pad, D's cell phone,camera anything with buttons & pictures

he has the cutest run, waddle loves to be tickled pulled around by the kids on a blanket

he is the best listener picks things up gets his coat his shoes

still signs more
He hates socks {about as much as I do}

HE LOVES MUSIC he will stop what he is doing to listen to it

in nursery they have sung ring around the rosie and he hums it and acts it out if he wants to play it he grabs our hands and we all do it! 

HE LOVES IT!

He hates to get his teeth brushed 

He has the straightest, pokiest hair

he is kind of shy sometimes

he is patient

kind

caring

calm

lovable kissable and huggable and life is so so beautiful because of him and the big part of the family he is with each and everyone one of them!

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This princess has learned to read so well over February and now has a book everywhere she goes ,,,she loves it! Its a whole new world for her! She is so smart and becoming quite the girl! We sure love her! {holy dirty glasses somebody should clean those!} She is so fun, funny and feisty!

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Fun links

Need an eyebrow makeover step by step this is the best tutorial video I've seen

check it out.

okay fun St Patty's day links...
go to this beautiful girls blog since we think so much alike really we do she is so fun!  I really was going to post pretty much all of what she did but I'll save myself time and let her do the sharing!

But from here

some subway art here you've probably already seen but for those that haven't  here ya go

this I got from a free printable but lost the link so if  you know lmk..

yes we are. blessed even more.

The more that you read, the more things you will know. The more that you learn, the more places you'll go.....