Question: What makes you sad?
One day I was at the park. I saw a little girl.
She reminded me of me when I was little.
It made me cry.
I wondered if there would ever be a day that I could have a child that is
a piece of me and D.
Then I wondered if this feeling would ever go away.
This feeling of having someone who looks a lot like me and D.
Then I remembered I'm not sad.
But a part of me is.
Will this feeling ever go away?
I'm happy. I am a mother. To three beautiful children.
Three special spirits that are forever ours.
Forever a part of our eternal family.
I wouldn't trade it for anything to have the children I do.
But at that moment in time I was sad.
For a minute.
I guess it will always be here.
But it comes and goes.
it only makes me sad sometimes.
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Other things that make me extremely sad is a society that is unkind to those who aren't exactly what society thinks we should be.
Hatred makes sad.
Racism makes me sad.
Kids being mean to other kids
for the way they look or act or dress or for any reason makes me so sad.
911 still makes me really sad. I remember the feelings I had that morning I remember the times I couldn't stop crying thinking about people having so much hatred that they kill others just because of it.
The Holocaust makes me sad.
Abuse of any kind makes me sad.
INFERTILITY.
Makes me sad.
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WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?
Can't end on a sad note so to even things out.
These things make me so happy.
Adoption.
kindness. children laughing. temple. scriptures. dates. rain. water skiing. knee boarding.
kolten. lauren. masen. darren.
scrap booking. running. walking. biking. dates. extended family.
being LDS.
obedience. chewy candies ha. pictures. good hair days. camping.
friends.
my testimony. where i live. water. trees. mountains.
music. quotes. a house. a yard. good books. trips away. shopping. blogging.
So just a few things that make me happy in the long list of things.
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7 comments:
I love you!! You are wonderful. You are so special to so many people and you touch so many lives.
I am crying as I read your blog as so many of the same things make me sad (and happy). 911 was such a horrible sad day. I remember seeing what was happening and just needing to go wake up my baby Jackson hold her and cry as she slept in my arms. Looking back on my childhood I was so carefree and had no real worries, I pray I can help my babies feel that same freedom.
You are such an amazing mom, what an incredible example you are to me and to anyone who knows you. You have such a wonderful spirit and anyone who reads your blog or has had a chance to get to know you should see that.
Something that makes me happy, the land we live in. The gorgeous mountains the beautiful plains that the sunsets on. I love this town, and all my friends. Love you all!!
Sorry for the novel of a comment. I just love ya!
Jenn E
I like that you ended on a happy note. :) I'm having a hard time thinking of what makes me sad, besides all of the above that you already mentioned.
PS Yes, will you please tell Burke hi for us! :) Have a great weekend Christal!!
I remember that feeling but with just a different twist. I am adopted and until we had our daughter I really missed having ANYONE I could look at and see pieces of myself.
I have lots of the same "sad" things on my list! I think it's okay to be sad about not being able to have a child of your own...even though you are so thankful and happy to have the 3 beautiful children you do have!!
After being in Washington this week, I was reminded how sad I am when I remember 9/11 and how much the world has changed since then. And the Holocaust was just unthinkable and so tragically sad!
But, I'm like you, I try to focus on the things that make me happy!
Ditto...I feel the same as you on all of that! There is so much sadness in the world, but when we think of the goodness and happy things in our lives, hopefully they outweigh any sadness! We are so blessed to have the gospel and that is everything!!!
......And that my dear is what makes you SO loveable! I am SO glad those things make you sad. (I'm not joyful that you are sad....but you know what I mean) They make you real. They make you who you are. A woman with righteous hopes and desires for all. You are SO caring and loving and want the best for all.
You make me happy. I just got home a few hours ago and I was SO sad that I had SO much work to come home to, and so much unpacking to do. I just decided to go to your blog. I knew you could remind me of what to be happy about. ; )
Hope you had a great weekend.
Love your thoughts. As someone in the adoption world and as someone who has had the opportunity to bear a child, and having many friends who never will...I think the sadness never truly goes away. My good friend Mrs. R. was over at my house last night and was looking through Emm's scrapbook. Photos from the delivery. You know what she said? "I had this dream once." It brought immediate tears to my eyes and a lot of gratitude that I could have experienced what I have. I think I took it for granted even though my children were special miracles. You know what though? We have an eternity of children ahead of us...and I know that bearing them can and will be a part of the plan if that is what we desire. Heavenly Father is amazing like that.
Big hugs to you. Your friends love you.
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